Waiting at the DMV

It has been so long since I’ve posted. Friends have told me that they miss my blog. Other friends have stopped writing themselves.

What has happened? Have I lost my drive, my motivation? Am I less happy without the writing or more happy because I’m not consumed by it?

I needed to write before, it was my therapy. The chance to turn a corner in betterment for myself.

Well, I did that. I accomplished that. I forgive my ex-husband. I’m friends with Jess. Our communication is incredible and our family is thriving as a result.

I’ve been married now for nearly 6 years to Paul. I have 6 beautiful children. We own a home now. After 5 1/2 years of financial struggle, we have money in the bank. I feel at home and at peace for the first time in so long.

I’ve gained about 20lbs in the last 3 years. I don’t remember the last time I was inside the gym. Though, I’ve gone out for runs more since we moved then in the previous 7 years.

I’m waiting in line at the DMV. The wait is over 2 hours and I’ve already been here for an hour and a half. I could have renewed my license online, but I need an enhanced license.

I need an enhanced license so I can run my half marathon in October. A run that I’ve been registered for 3 times prior to now and have only completed once. This is my year though.

2017 has been so good to me. Things still bother me, in ways that I can’t explain, but can often anticipate now.

It is the weekend before my birthday, still a rough one for me. I can’t explain it, life is good now, but I still get spooked.

Thank you for listening, for understanding, for waiting and for reading!