Tuesday Ten Minutes: Closed Door

Write about a time when you know God closed a door for you!  It might be painful or scary.

OK…truth here…Divorce!!  This is painful to talk about, but might be a little scary for some to think about as well.

This is crazy right?  I mean I have this wonderful relationship with God.  Many people believe that God doesn’t believe in divorce, the church doesn’t believe in divorce…so we don’t get divorced right?

That wasn’t God’s plan for me!  Now…7 1/2 years later, I can see that it was God working.  Due to the wonderful relationship that I have with God and the church, I wouldn’t have filed for divorce all willy nilly.  It would have to take something HUGE and off the top of my head my whole life those two things have been infidelity and abuse.

Well, let me make clear that there was no abuse!  God knew that in order for me to give up and to walk away, something big had to happen.  I believe that God had spent the years prior to the divorce trying to connect us, trying to help us make things work.  When it became obvious that we weren’t the best mate for each other any longer, God closed a door.

I mean now to be fair God, it was more like you slammed a door right in my face.  Though for that part, I believed you had a little bit of help.  I couldn’t see it then, I couldn’t see the positive side.  All I saw was my world crumbling down around me.

7 1/2 years later, I know that it was what was meant to happen.  It had to happen when it did and the way that it did.  The following year of work I did with you, helped get my heart and mind ready for when I met Paul.  I couldn’t have been ready for love again if you didn’t guide me through that season.

You knew that there was something different for both myself and Matt (my ex).  That we couldn’t make each other as happy together as we could separate.  I see Matt a lot now.  Our families make sense now.  Sitting all together at a basketball or baseball game.  Going to eat at his restaurant and doing business with his wife.  These are all parts of my life that bring light, parts that couldn’t have been there if it weren’t for the door that closed.

Some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers (or closed doors)!

Published by Making Time For Me

Wife, Mother, Step Mom, Control Freak. 7 years into my second marriage and dedicated to making my home a chemical free safe haven <3

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