For lent I started a Bible Study journey with a group of friends.  We are working through “Looking for Lovely” by Annie. F. Downs.  So far it is fantastic.  I also bought the book itself and finished it in less than 3 days.

Yesterday was Day 3 of Week 1.  Topic: Do Not Quit.  “I believe in perseverance.  Don’t hear me wrong, it’s not because I am good at it.  I just believe in it because I see it working in my life.”  Annie F. Downs

I have found more in the first few weeks of 2018 that everything I look at, read and listen to is pointing me in the exact same direction  Isn’t that beautiful? I finished reading the looking for lovely book last night, so I started on a new book. My 12th book of 2018, Business Boutique: A Woman’s Guide for Making Money Doing What She Loves. Well I read this in there just now “I’ve learned to talk to myself rather than listen to myself. When I Listen to myself, all I hear is fear, doubt, lies and failure. But when I talk to myself, I can tell myself anything I want to. I can feed myself good thoughts of hope, confidence, truth and victory. I can tell myself I can do it. When I learned to talk to myself rather than listen to myself, I realized that there was nothing I couldn’t do.”

I thought it went well with the idea of perseverance for today!  When we are able to talk to ourselves we persevere.  We know our strength and we hold on until we get what we want!!  Perseverance isn’t easy of course, but it is what makes us who we are.  It builds up our character.

Romans 5: 3-5 says: Suffering –>Perseverance –>Character –>Strength

Suffering produces perseverance, and perseverance produces characters, and there, after your character is built? Hope.

I have lived a pretty good life…but I have one big way that I suffered.  That suffering took place 7 1/2 years ago when I was going through my divorce.

February 16th…7 years ago February 16th of 2011 I posted something on Facebook to the effect of…6 months ago I made the hardest decision I have ever had to make, the decision to leave. Then I went on to say that 4 years ago tomorrow (February 17th) a man and a woman said “I do” and in the years that followed two children were born and a myriad of memories were shared. Although that marriage is no more, I would always be thankful for February 17, 2007. Yesterday would have been mine and Matt’s 11 year anniversary…we lasted 3 1/2. But that is OK! That was God’s plan, I know that 100% now. Paul and I have now been married 6+ years and God knew what he was doing when he brought Paul into my second act! He knew what he was doing when he brought Matt to me as well. Thursday night Matt and I sat on the same bleachers together to watch James basketball game. We said both “hi” and “bye” to each other, with smiles on our faces. Yesterday I called Jess (Matt’s wive) to tell her something, even though she is out of town and we finished the phone call saying “love you”. I believe in my heart of hearts that because I was able to see the positive in the suffering 7 years ago, that is why I am able to see it in leaps and bounds now. It isn’t easy, but it is so worth it!

I persevered through that mess.  I told myself that everything was going to be OK and that it was all going to make sense someday.  Well, I was right.  And that suffering produced perseverance, and that perseverance produced character, and there, after that character was built….I was left with Hope.  Hope that this life could still be whatever I wanted to it to be.  That all was a chapter in my first Act of life, but it wasn’t my whole story!!

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Wife, Mother, Step Mom, Control Freak. 7 years into my second marriage and dedicated to making my home a chemical free safe haven <3

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