First of all, last night, right before I went to bed I prayed to God that he would give me a sign that letting go is the right thing. In my head it is and every time I think about it, I know it would be so good, but something in me just isn’t quite ready to commit to taking the leap.
Then this morning, this is my page in my devotion. Day Fifty-Eight When You Let Go, 100 Days to Brave by Annie F. Downs.
I am going to quote quite a bit of this page today, because I can’t for the life of me believe that this is what I read this morning. “It is a bit easier to let go when you know what you are grabbing hold of. The monkey bar option, I like to call it. You are willing to let go of the current monkey bar because you can see the next one you want to grab.” “The deeper call for courage comes when you let go with nothing ahead to grab.”
This is where I am right now. I am so ready to let go, but I don’t know what lies ahead and that is very scary for me. I have some major control issues and purposefully choosing a path in which I don’t know what comes next, well just forget about it.
“When it is time to let go, you know it. Your fingers long to ease their grip, but your heart begs them to hold on-not because it is best for you, but because the unknown is scary. Only in letting go are your hands free to grab the next thing.”
From this I gather, that I have to be ready to let go because whatever lies ahead will only be visible to me and available for me once I have both hands free to grab it.
“Please let go. Please be brave enough to empty your hand without seeing the next monkey bar.” Man oh man, did I need to read this today. I prayed yesterday in my car while listening to Annie F. Downs podcast, please God just show me. Then last night before I fell asleep, give me a sign, help me to see. Then this morning, BAM, right in front of me.
Every day ends with a task, a commission or a question. Today “Bob Goff says quit something every Thursday. What can you quit this week?” Well, let’s start with the fact that I have missed mornings of reading my devotion, but I don’t ever skip around or ahead. I started the book on a random day in January and here I am on Thursday March 22nd, a Thursday and THIS is the day that I was meant to read it.
I don’t plan on actually quitting anything today, or maybe I should find something that I can quit today just to follow suit. Hmm…now that has me thinking.
What can you quit today? What are you holding on to that you should let go of?