For years I worked and worked. For years I cried on the inside mostly, on the outside some.
I thought if I just did more of X added some of Z and less of Y, that I would be better in no time.
I spent years of therapy, years of journaling (blogging), reading self care books and spending time with people whom I truly love. Each thing making life a little better, a little more tolerable, but nothing truly fixing my insides.
I was walking around grocery shopping yesterday and got tears in my eyes. This is it, this is what it feels like… to be truly happy.
I had a lot of questions that I needed answered in a million different ways. I needed to find myself and within that, find how I could be the wife, mom and friend that I’m meant to be.
I searched for a long time. I mean I had many questions that needed to be answered before I could rest. Turns out that some of the answers were simply feelings.
I used to apologize for myself. For wanting more, for doing things differently, for questioning the process. No more….I choose my family, I choose happiness and I choose me!!!