So…we have been home for nearly 7 weeks now.
I quit smoking on February 24th, like 2.5 weeks before the shut down. What are the chances? I don’t know what specifically made me choose that date, but it felt good so I did. I’ll be honest and tell you that I have caved a couple of times, just a couple though. I am giving myself grace for that!
When this whole thing started I was in the best shape I had been in for like a decade. Down 20lbs for the year, feeling good on the inside and out. Wednesdays were my “weigh-in” days for myself. I have gained a couple of pounds in the last 7 weeks of being at home, less than 5. I am giving myself grace for that!
We started our continuity of learning plan this week for school. Which means trying to coordinate schedules for a 2nd, 5th and 7th graders. Three different schools, three different plans. Live viewings, videos posted, homework assigned and all due by Friday. We will miss some things I am sure and I am reminding myself that my kids have been doing GREAT for the last 6 weeks and will continue to do so even if they miss a Google classroom update. I am giving myself grace for that!
Every single day I see people post hateful, awful things on social media. My gut is to respond to them, jump in with some personal thought. Some thought about how their selfishness needs to take a backseat right now. But then, my need to comment on their post says something about me more than it does about them. People don’t know what to do and instead of just deciding how they feel about it, they are posting about how they think others should feel. I am giving them grace for that!
Yesterday I saw someone post “If Jesus lives inside of you then nothing can touch you!” Instead of interjecting my thoughts on that comment, I just talked about it with my husband. Trying to get a real understanding of how that sentence makes me feel and if I live my life accordingly. I reached out to my best friend who is a Deacon in the United Methodist Church and got an idea of why that made me feel some type of way. This person believes that there is no way that the Corona Virus can impact them or anyone who has Jesus living in them, I am giving them grace for that!
Grace is my word for 2020. I chose it sometime at the end of 2019. Little did I know then, what I know now. How much I would need that word in this year. Grace….for myself, my children, my husband, my friends, my family, the school system, the teachers, the internet, google classroom and all the other things!! Situations both new and old, they somehow all look different right now. I am giving grace for that!