I am a control freak. Whem things feel out of my control, I am in a downward spiral. A spiral that will take everyone nearby into it.
Over the last few weeks I have been working everyday to focus on what I can directly influence, let go of external stuff. Plan for what I can control, accept things outside of my control. These are actual written down goals from therapy. That I need to go back and read every morning.
When I remember to look at things in this way, my life is happier and not nearly as anxious. I deserve the smiles and the laughter. More important to me, is that my loved ones deserve it.
The pandemic is highlighting that many, many things are outside of my control. Even though that may not be preferred, it is fact. So, instead of living every day pissed off….I choose to bring my own sunshine.