I am not at all sure the last time that I wrote. That being said, after a quick look it appears I haven’t written at all in 2021. “The Weary World Rejoices.”
Crazy, because here I sit here at the end of October and I still feel so weary. Something is just so sad and so different.
My husband and I had a difficult conversation this weekend. One that resulted in him point out that I don’t know how to have fun anymore. That sometime over the last couple of years, I lost my ability to find fun and funny in day to day life. Is he right? I mean, I am sure he is. He knows me better than anyone. That I don’t laugh as much as I use to and that I don’t see the simple joys of a joke or awkward situations.
I do not want to continue to be this way. It is difficult to sit at a family game night and be thinking about the ceiling that has water damage or the laundry that needs to be done. I have a hard time being in the moment. Just enjoying the simplest of times, without feeling bogged down by the “what ifs”.
There has been too much sadness in my life over the last month. First, I lost my grandmother. The first grandparent of mine to pass. She was the youngest of the four and something about that makes it harder to wrap my brain around. Then there have been other health issues and scares with other family members. Lastly, the father of one of my son’s friends died suddenly.
I am scared and I am sad. I am worried about the what-ifs. I need some good tricks and tips to relax and embrace the fun! Anyone have any awesome suggestions?
The thing is, I have this amazing family, wonderful husband and a home that I feel so blessed to live in. I have an abundance of things to be thankful for and in awe of, so why do I let my mind get consumed with the small details, and try to pull others down that hole with me?
Today when I signed into WordPress for the first time in what appears to be 10 months, I had a comment from someone who had read my blog back in March. It was a lengthy, kind and inspiring comment. She was commenting on a post that had been written 6 years prior, but the words she said still needed to be heard today. “You deserve happiness without worry.” Don’t we all?
Making Time For Me 