Some days are better than others. Some moments are easier to navigate through. Sometimes I yell and I scream and others I sit quietly (these times are few and further between). In all of these moments I try to remind myself of all the good that I have in my life.
When frustration starts to stir because of things that are beyond my control, I take a deep breathe and try to refocus on what is important. Our furnace has been acting up the last couple of weeks. When I noticed it not running as long as it should, I think of how long and how often it has run exactly as it should and how we are in a position to get it fixed, with a friend who is willing to help us fix it.
We have a hole in the ceiling of our living room. This spot on our ceiling has given me great anxiety since about a year after we moved in. It started bubbling and getting water damage. Then eventually this past January while I was making school lunches I heard a thud, a piece of the dry wall just fell onto the ground. We have spent the last 10 months trying to get to the root of the problem so that we can patch and repaint. That hole drives me crazy. When I look at it though, I try to remember the running water, the shower and the home that make it possible for that hole to even exist.
Our kids are getting older. More and more I think about the choices that they make and scratch my head wondering why in the world?? I just try to remember at their core, they are good kids and will ultimately figure it all out and be better for whatever they are making their way through currrently.
I get frustrated, a lot and I wear my frustration on my sleeve (read that face) way too often. I know how truly lucky I am though. I know that when I look around I have far more to be happy, positive and content with than I do to complain about. Life is so good if you just allow yourself to see it!