War without Guidance

Today was the final day in a 40 day long bible plan that I have been doing with a good friend. There was a passage that really hit me. Along with some words in the devotional. These words were put before me today for a reason, I know that. “Surround me with wise godly friends

Back to Therapy #40in2020

Almost 5 years ago now, I went to therapy for the first time. I was self destructing and I needed some help. After some guidance from my husband, I decided to take the leap. This continued for over a year until we moved. Everything felt much better and I didn’t seek out a new therapist.

Fruit of the Spirit #40in2020

When we are lucky. We get wise as we get older. We allow life to pull us out of some of our comfortable ways and easy choices. Our eyes are more open to new ideas, thoughts and adventures. What we just have to be sure of, is that our heart stays on the right course.

Who knows what the “right” answer is?

I am a rule follower! It is important to me to do what I want, but within guidelines set out for me. You tell me to stay home, then I will stay home. You start opening up places with precautionary measures set into place, I will give it a try. I have only gone grocery

Good Day

Almost exactly 3 years ago now a friend of mine passed on. A friend who was like 35 years older than me. I had grown up in church with him as a leader. He lead us in Sunday school, in youth groups and in mission trips. Jim was one of a kind. My heart still

Self Care #40in2020

Today I should be at the zoo with my youngest. Unfortunately, he had a rough morning and we stayed home. I look forward to getting outside of this house and being in the world. Doing things beyond these four walls is part of my self care. Since we ended up having to stay home, I

Last day of school!

This week we have had locker cleanouts, parking lot drive ups and our final google meets. My kids have seemed to weather this all better than me. Last night as I watched my 7th grader walk into his school alone, with a mask on to empty his locker, I had tears rolling down my face.

Guilty By Association

I feel a deep dark sadness. A sadness I believe that I would have felt no matter what. Though, is ultimately amplified by this pandemic. An overwhelming feeling of loneliness that has been washed over me for 3 months now. It is now worsened by the grief that I feel for the community. A community

69 days until the big 4-0

I have written about my gray hair before, but I wanted to broach the subject again. I have dark brown hair. I absolutely love my hair. In my teens, I wanted hints of red. I used shampoos that were meant to add color. In my college years, I thought I wanted a richer brown color,

What if??

What if 2020 was everything we never knew we needed?